THE REMINDER OF THE HOLY SPIRIT

“Now the Lord is the Spirit, and where the Spirit of the Lord is, there is freedom.” 2 Corinthians 3:17

I asked … “Dear Lord Jesus, I believe you are with me, but why am I paralyzed with fear? Why can’t I feel anything but pain and why am I so fearful of tomorrow?” 

At the age of 33, pregnant with my 4th child and facing a heart-breaking divorce I was so afraid. I was starving for something in my life that would not change or leave me. And as for my children, what would happen to us? Fear gripped me. I craved stability and security. I was determined to keep my family together. But how?

I began to seek Jesus and amazingly what I craved for I found in my church attendance, reading the Bible, fellowship and worship. The Lord did more than I could imagine and gave me a wonderful husband after being a single mom for almost 5 years. Psalm 37:4 “Delight yourself in the Lord and He will give you the desires of your heart” 

Now let’s fast forward 30 years…. the kids grow up, some get married, gave us grandchildren, my grandparents pass away, my father passes away. I was trying to learn how to live without children in our home, and felt nothing by sadness and rejection, but wait…. JESUS. Are you here with me? Yes, you are here! I’m hurting again, unbearable pain, no one understands the heart of a mom, empty now.

Searching, I became part of an on-line Bible study group with Hurting Moms Mending Hearts where He strategically placed a leader, one who wasn’t afraid to call on The Holy Spirit. She opened in prayer and asked The Holy Spirit to guide, teach & fill us all. That was exactly when I knew, this was what I needed to hear, not my words but from my leader, Christy, words I couldn’t get out of my mouth. He knew what I needed and what I’m sure each woman needed to hear, reliance on the Holy Spirit and not on ourselves. Faithfully with all loving kindness, The Lord Jesus gently showed me my error; I was relying on “ME” and “MY” plans and thoughts. Somewhere, when my pain became larger than anything else and in between my failed plans, I had stepped out of relying on the Holy Spirit. He had directed me and taught me years ago, and there I was teetering back and forth from what He had taught me back to my own ways again. I had stopped fully relying on Him. What a beautiful gift that I received, the gentle reminder of the power of The Holy Spirit!

By Deb Ives, Hurting Moms Leader – Lexington, Michigan