Seek the Lord and his strength; seek his presence continually!” – 1 Chronicles 16:11

The place where our heart breaks is right where the Lord is. 

I remember Isaiah 43:2 and I know that I will not drown in the waters that seem to overflow me, I will not be burned by the fire that burns out of control around me, I will trust in his “promises”. I’m safe in his arms. 

I press on, I allow those who love me… to love me. 

Over 20 years on this journey, during the holidays I learned to enjoy those who are “present” with me.  There were times when I was in the presence of my 60 + member family and would not allow anyone in. I was surrounded by people who loved me, yet isolated. 

Although, they walked the painful journey with me I was afraid to enjoy the moment for being fearful of what my addict was doing or was going to do. I actually put it into action with a conscience effort and made it happen… it happened.  I’m free.  I no longer feel alone.

This year I recently spent Thanksgiving holidays with my family of ten, along with my recovering addict and his family with no incidents.  Recovery is on the horizon.

God always makes things better than the day before.

By Renee Jessup, Hurting Moms Leader – Hopkinsville, Kentucky